So Stupid

[jessb8383]

I starve myself daily-
Constrict the hatred and anger I feel
Tied in long knots across my heart
Impaled on the scarlet deep end

I use to fantasize of death-
As if it were some magical sleep-
Eyes shut and mind closed of the world beneath
I would say-
Take what's left of me...

I have been so stupid to believe-
That my life was worth anything
I have been so stupid to believe-
Someone could penetrate so deep to find what’s inside
& set me free

I understand now, happiness:
A brief moment of spontaneity in which the world opens up and reveals itself
& then quickly closes off-
The feeling comes and goes, leaves me:
Remorseful, bewildered, always hungry for more

[mfwilkie]

jess,

I like this, but think it needs to be tightened a bit.

Give it a few days and then look at it again.

I think you'll hear where it needs to be trimmed.

Maggie